How are you feeling today?

I believe we all have feelings.

I myself have feelings too. Yes this is going to be my storyline again. Not you or him or her or the world. Just ME

There have been few things that I am really really (beh kam guan) dissatisfied or just cannot accept the fact that it is a reality.

Things that has gone forever.. things that has never come true.. things that will never happen no matter how hard I try. These three things are enough to hound me for years. It wouldn’t happen if I don’t push myself into the scene at the 1st place.

I ended up being miserable inside me all the time. I tried hard to just forget it and be happy but It is so serious to the stage that I even dreamt about it couple times. In my dreams… all the three things happened oppositely. It is just the way I wanted it to be. But I was still very dissatisfied in the dreams when it’s all I wanted. I am probably lost…..

It’s not about my dream coming true…. It’s about me not being able to let go off the past.

INvitatIoN~~

For the past six months, people come, people go and some even stop doing it evolved to concentrate on other things. Shuffling is just a great dancesports. Not extreme but just cool. As long as you get to know how the feet rythmn works. Then you starts to shuffle and believe me it feels great to know how to FOLLOW THE BEAT. Been doing this since December 2004 and still doing it.

In fact, it has become so popular that we now have few clans in Kuching only calling themselves different names. I don’t know if they are good or not and I don’t care. Shuffling is all about having fun, enjoying music and respecting the DJs. Someone came to me and asked if we do battle in the world of Melbourne Shuffle and the answer was, you watch too much movie. Music is suppose to bring people together and not war.

So, we came out with another activity after the last Mass Corrosion in February. It will be the 2^nd Free Casual Park Shuffle in Kenyalang since the last one on 16^th December 2007… speaking of it get to my nerve when Guiness Stout promotion suddenly happened on the same night, same place…. -_-lll

The IN IN thiNgy~~

I got an sms this morning
She’s getting married… again…
I hope this a realistic one
So so happy for her

I’m going to KL again soon
Only if she does
Coz I’m the proud witness
Not my 1st time being a witness thought
Boring deh.. signing other people’s marriage form
Lolz

Oh….
Willy’s heir Wayne was born last weekend
Fuh-Yoh.. he’s a father now

My colleague Angela
Has a 1 year old son Brandon
I was her witness bout 2 years ago

She had a primary school gathering recently
Most of her friends are married
With…. children

Why suddenly everybody wants to have a family? Don’t see a point as it means no freedom and full of commitment. For me getting married and having a family is not having a Christmas gift and it’s just a routine of life and then you die.

Anyway, I wish all of them good luck.

SomEtimEs, tHe trUth realLy hurts but beTter tHan Lie

I got a call from Bayaraa this afternoon to book their tickets to Kuching. The reunite of Mongos & me. Great news is Sherlee is coming back soon…. So it’s going to be almost complete except for him still being in Mongolia. I keep telling myself I don’t miss him anymore but that’s a lie. I adopted my baby tribezone to keep me busy & it didn't work either....

In this life we have not meant to be together for I have been dead deep inside. April 18 will be exactly 1 year since my coldest lonely journey began. I have not heard anything from him since the last sms from Beijing in December last year telling me that it’s very cold & he’s on the way back to Mongolia……

Why did Bayaraa suddenly call me & made me reminising the past…….